Thirty-six hours ago, my ex, X-Man, sent me an email deceptively entitled “(no subject)”. The email informed me that he was about to be in a Facebook relationship. Because he was in a real relationship. And now he and this “Megan” character needed the Internet to make it official.
I’ve spent the past 24 hours listening to the Alanis Morisette’s album, Jagged Little Pill.
The relationship status officially appeared on my Facebook newsfeed this afternoon, about 24 hours after I received (no subject). I immediately clicked on Megan’s name. The small window that appeared didn’t give me much info. She’d gone to UCLA. We had 2 friends in common: X-Man and some random girl I’d gone to summer camp with back when I used to lip-sync to Robyn’s “Show Me Love” and pray that my first kiss would be with Joshua Jackson.
Then there was a postage-stamp-sized profile picture. It was almost a close-up of her face: blonde wavy hair, big blue (I think) eyes. She looked kind of like JonBenét Ramsey. Creepy. And she was wearing the same gold lamé headband that I own. Bitch.
But forget Megan. She’ll never be more than one of those small Facebook windows, and a Facebook window isn’t exactly a reliable method of comparison. Now that the dust has settled, now that I’ve had time to mull it over and eat through my feelings (a pint of B&J’s Half Baked Ice Cream), I’m left feeling upset with myself more than anything else…And not just because of the ice cream that has disguised me as a woman in her second trimester.
X-Man wrote a (no subject) email because that’s exactly what it was: no big deal. I haven’t seen him for months. I don’t want to date him. I like that we’re still friends. So that fact that I let his (no subject) become the reigning subject of the day feels, well, disappointing. However, tomorrow is a new day, a fresh newsfeed, and (no subject) will just become one of the masses in my Gmail archive.
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January 30th, 2009 at 7:55 pm
awww babe I know exactly what this is like..happened to me and one of my friends knew her so I got to stalk her page..but seeing her photos made it worse…you are right though, tomorrow will be better.
February 4th, 2009 at 12:40 pm
No subject is unfair. A no subject email from someone you don’t email with regularly is equivalent to someone you haven’t spoken to in a while calling you… and not leaving a message. You see the missed call and you’re trying to figure out why they might have called. Anyway, i agree with Ponderings — try your darndest not to look for pictures, it will only make things worse. Especially if you don’t even want to be with this guy anymore.